Intentional

Tomorrow I return to work after having 3.5 months off with my sweet baby boy. 

Tomorrow I take Kingston to a daycare provider I've met 2 times.

Tomorrow I become a working mom. 

As hesitant and anxious I am, this is something I have to do for my family and the 'lifestyle' we choose to live. 

When I think about it - I will have about 4 (awake) hours a day with Kingston throughout the week and 12 hours a day on the weekend. When I do the math, that's 44 hours out of the 168 total hours (70 of those he's asleep and 54 he's at daycare) I have with him while he's awake. That's not very much time I get to spend loving on my little man. 

That's why I'm making a commitment and a vow to be intentional with my time. 

The definition of intentional: done on purpose; deliberate. 

Especially for those 4 hours I have with him throughout the week, they are going to have a purpose. 

That means no time with my nose stuck down in my phone. 

That means meal planning so I don't waste precious minutes slaving away in the kitchen. 

That means tidying the house, starting the laundry and loading the dishwasher in the evening after he goes to sleep. 

That means packing our lunches and laying out our clothes at night, so I can get a few more giggles in in the morning. 

My goal is to be deliberate in all of my actions so I can be the best working mom possible.